Why do most people pretend to be emo?

im a emo kid i cut my wrist and hope to die so what its not like it matters to most people when u have no friends ur family screws u over 24/7 they say u cant talk to your girlfriend b/c u dont do enought i just got done cutting i have 31 cuts on my arm and 2 cigarette burns all because i feel like i have nuthing i feel empty chested my mind i cant find it u tell me why kids cut b/c i still havent found the awnser and i just dont care about life iv almost tried commiting suicide then being put in a mental hospital u kno wat that did to me that mad me 10 times worse i started hating myself until i found this one girl who keeps me happy and i dont do drugs so i know that its not a drug thing it is an addiction that always needs feeding and ur arm is just stinging but doesnt bother u at all well thats all the imformation i have for u wish i could tell u more just dont know anymore o n concerlers never helped me ether i told them i dont give a dang about my life